Samhain – do you feel the power?

Today is it!… the day.. the highest and most important holiday for most of the witches (no, not these ones who eat cats) … but yeah, they’re doing ritual stuff tonight. and why?

Samhain’s main idea is to say goodbye to the warm and sunny time, because the sun dies until the 21. of december, where the sun is reborn.
the 21. of december is not just a random date, usually it’s that day of the year, where we have shortest day and after that, the sun is slowly reborn. but about that another time.

this night and the time until the 21.december the frontiers between this world, and the unconscious world of the others, the deads and the gods are more permeable…
what does it mean? more permeable?
It means, that you get easier access to this surrounding energy which consists all these entities and beings.

for our friends on southern hemisphere of the earth – for you it’s all mirrored.. so you might celebrate “beltane” today, the day when the sun is becoming older, stronger and fructuous…

and tonight, i will for the first time be part of one of these samhain rituals (if nothing comes inbetween, we never know) … and i know, that this night will help me with a very important personal decision. the decision is about my further spiritual and religious steps and ways i head to. i’m at a junction point now, and i believe that this night (especially after the ritual) will help me decide which way to take. the ways are similar, but they’re heading another goal. so it’s going to be a hard decision…

but we will see… maybe i’ll write about it… maybe not

enjoy halloween samhain or whatever you do tonight.

grz – pfoff

Ride a wave on Imogen’s inhaling.. is this it?

I need to write another Post today… it’s a post about the great british singer, composer and producer …

Imogen Heap

It’s been about a year since i heard her first song “Hide and seek” and i’ve been very dissappointed. i hated it. i used to call it the worst song i’ve ever heard. a little later i heard the song “the walk” – and i used to call it the best song i’ve ever heard!
So Imogen Heap got the high status of “The Artist with the best and worst song i ever heard” ..
And then, i forgot her for about a year .. and then, about a week ago .. my cousin asked me about her.. and then.. i just get to know all her songs.. and i realised, that she used to sing in a band called “frou frou” and i also got to know their songs.

and so now i decided to show you the greatness of frou frou and especially imogen heap… By the way.. i relistened to the song “hide and seek” and i realised that the song is a great piece of art (like my wicked blog haha..) … so yeah let’s get to see some of their videos…

first let’s watch a very great clip of the even greater song “breathe in” – it’s a single by frou frou and it’s just great!

isn’t it great?

let’s move on by two songs of imogen herself…
first one is called “goodnight and go” and the second one is called “headlock” the second is my current imogen favorite

and here… the last one.. once called “the worst song i’ve ever heard” and now i must confess, i think (especially when it’s connected with the clip) a very cool piece of art. but still.. i really understand, if you don’t like that song…

“hide and seek”

So that was my little entry about imogen heap.. an artist with more potential then i’ve ever thought when i first heard her..

have a nice nite – yours pfoff

Don’t adopt black cats… (Trick, treat or immolation)

What’s up with people right now? i can’t believe it. i just read some news about america (and this also seems to swap around the globe sooner or later)..

You can’t adopt black cats and white bunnies at the moment in american pet shops.. and why? because of the evening before All saints’ day – all hallows – the all hallows evening

HALLOWEEN

And do you know why? because of the witches who eat cats and bunnies… or the witches who sacrifice black cats and white bunnies to their evil devilish gods…

… well i know some witches, and i don’t believe that they would eat cats (even if they might taste like chicken – if we believe the chinese people) … so where’s the problem? and have they even thought about, that those evil-devilish-witchy boysngirls would get the black cats and white bunnies earlier?

I mean, sorry, but if i was a cat-eating-witch (whoever is like that, please tell me, would interest me) i would know that they don’t sell their black cats in the week of halloween and i’d get 200 black cats one week before the week of halloween

Another strict warning that americans get is, to keep their endangered pets inside the flat as long as halloween lasts.
Endangered pets are:
– Black cats
– White Bunnies

ring a bell and we remember, they believe only black cats and white bunnies can be sacrificed to the moloch… what about the virgins? so keep all your children inside your flat as long as halloween lasts (and feed them with sweets) .. [ok i confess there is another way to keep your children safe on halloween, but well.. i WILL NOT go into that topic now]
And well, can’t we sacrifice herbs too? we must cut out all the herbs and keep them inside our flat… holy smoke – keep IT inside the flat…

and as soon as everything is kept inside the flat to keep it safe…
… streets are free again for the sane beings … also called witches…

enjoy halloween tomorrow my beloved christian friends …
… i will enjoy it for sure.. in the forest… lurking for everything sacrificeable (nice word though haha)
at least i live in switzerland, one of the places where the prejudice is strong but kept behind the doors of the flat (as if we could sacrifice it)

A big take care to everyone and please don’t sacrifice things with eyes.

- pfoff

Surrounded by lies or Mankind’s conundrum of lying

A Topic that recently bothered me (in fact, last friday, as far as i remember) was the fact, that i’m sourrounded by liars (and that i tend to be a liar myself very often)..
Why the hell is it so damn difficult to be honest and true about things we don’t know?
On thursday, i had talks with different people, and they all seemed to lie to me. and i just realised, everyone’s lying all the time.
The main problem is, that people don’t dare to tell, they have no idea about topics. If you ask someone on the street for the way, everyone is like “oh i’m sorry, i have no idea” (and most times, even that is a lie) and they say so, because it’s not bad to have no idea about places, cuz it’s common.
But what happens if you ask a computer supporter about something he/she doesn’t know? he’ll just tell you “something” because he/she believes you have no idea at all. And that kind of living seems to move into every part of the life.
With every part of the life i mean, we just lie some wee things in that little thing and this little thing… just because it’s easier to say “Hey Melanie, how are you?? long time not seen? how’s your husband??” than “Hey Melanie, we both know we don’t like each other. byebye”
i know that would be mean, but wouldn’t it be more fair? than to pretend false-faced niceness?
You know, exactly that sentence remembers me to my last post about that guy who told me i’m ugly. Wasn’t he just saying the truth? i mean it’s the truth of his opinion. So… maybe i judged him to bad?
Maybe not, because it’s a conundrum … what should we do? if we lie, we are evil, if we don’t lie, we are mean… i real dilemma…
And for now (because it’s too late) i don’t really have an answer to that question… maybe someone else has??…
We’ll see…

thanks to the liars who surround me and the Kenaz who showed me i’m not better than them.. that all inspired me to write an entry about that. but it took me a few days to get a clear head about it. you know, discovering and facing the lies around me, had let me get boiling. but now i’ve calmed down and arrived on the state i can write bout it and sadly, now the fire’s out and i’m too less angry, to write hard enough about the lying way we walk on. And maybe that’s the reason, i don’t have the answer to mankind’s conundrum of lying.

By the way, Tarot just predicted, i’m going to be a slut if i don’t change my way of living.. maybe that also has to do with lies? but too tired to write about that now, maybe another time, maybe.. maybe…

have a nice night and day – pfoffie

Early thoughts about Beauty..

soo, now it just got 3AM and i was so shocked, cuz the clock was like:
2:58
2:59
2:00

you know i remembered that the time is set back to winter time… but oh dare you smart little computer changed it yourself… but well.. still i feel like 3am
and you know, 3am is not the time i like to be awake… goshy i don’t want to remember those nocturnal visit thingies

And so i guess that post won’t become too long (well.. as good as i know me, there is a chance for it to become long.. but i’m feeling sooo sleepy)
You know the reason for that early blogentry is the fact, that i forgot to write a post yesterday.. (even if i really had time enough)

And now let me tell you a story about beauty.. we all know it, don’t we?
This evenin’ i went to a friend (WHO SHOULD READ MY BLOG FINALLY, but that’s off-topic) and then he had some chat with a very unpolite person. i won’t go too deep in that chat-conversation, but that unpolite person came up to know how i look like and “it” told my friend that his friend (with his friend, i mean myself) is ugly (well he said it in a different way, but that was the bottom line (goshy that’s such a pun haha)) .. so you know, that kind of (unpolite) information didn’t leave me without making me thinking about it. You know, i really don’t care bout the thoughts of other people. I’m just what, who and how i am – you know antiflatteries don’t hurt me much. Me’s really used to that cuz i know i’m not the general type of “beautiful model”.
But then i surely had to see how that guy does look like.. and i was very relieved to see him and realise, that i am (through my own eyes) tons more attractive than that guy (goshy, for me he really wasn’t any eye-candy.. but to be fair, he wasn’t eye-acid as well.. [but eye-vinegar]) haha.. and i’m for sure more intelligent, even if he had finished his university-thingy about.. well what was it? theology? guess so.. very useful, isn’t it?

you know i just saw my face lately in the mirror (you know, watching the mirror is even for ugly people a perseverative pleasure) and i just really liked my eyes. they are not that special, but they’re really nice. and my face’s not that ugly as well .. sooo… what else is important than the face?

the inner beauty!
Yes goshy i love my character.. i’m an altruistic egoist and a non-arrogant conceit .. sounds schizo but nice for me..

There’s just the one problem (i already wrote):
i’m veeeeryyy conceited. and the even bigger problem is, that most people think, i don’t have the right to be conceited… but in fact i’m more beautiful than most of them, even if i was the only who would think that. (i’m not, but) i wouldn’t care, because the only taste for beauty which counts is my own.. (to the guy who should read this: as i said – selfology)..

And now, to close this up a very important note:
No, this post ins’t just a mask for myself to pretend something and to keep me from being depressive (even if the post really gives the impression of an antidepressiva-mask). The time when i was like this is so passed away, it feels like in an other blog. (goshy i never had another blog)

so writing this took me half an hour… *yawns*

i’ll catch ya’ll later somewhen and let’s see what happens..

ur pfoffie

Smart intelligence and how to live with it?

Since yesterdays Post i feel very philosophic haha..

So today i’m again in that philosophy-mood. But First. Do you know the meaning of the word philosophy?

Philosophy comes (like so many of the words of our vocabulary) from greek. The origin word was φιλοσοφία, which is literally said like “philosophia”. And maybe you already see the meaning, and if not, read further.
Philosophia is made of 2.5 Words: phil – o – sophia
So let’s translate/analyze those words, and let’s start with the first:
phil: Does it ring a bell? … i guess, to explain that word, it’s best to enumerate some “illnesses”: paedo-phil-lic… necro-phil-lic…
What do these two words have in common? yeah! phil! and what are these words talking about? yes! Different/special ways of “love”..
So maybe now you understand the meaning of that word?
phil equals love.
So philosophia begins with love. and the “o” between is surely just a connecting word. like “love for …”
BUT love for what?.. you know the philosphic people? they talk about all the stuff of the world, without any real pattern. You can talk philosophic about everything… so now i wonder what’s the meaning of “sophia”…

If you’ve just seen the movie “The da vinci code” you’ll have no idea about “sophia”… because “some” people just cancelled “her” out the movie
but if you’ve readen the book (or listened to the audiobook) you could’ve get a glimpse or idea what sophia is about.

what word could we connect with sophia? maybe… sophisticated? So sophia is about wisdom and intelligence..

so a philosopher is a person who loves wisdom? which doesn’t mean, that all the philosophers are wise

And that second part of philosophy is what i’m interested in today. Intelligence, wisdom. You know, it’s easy to describe Wisdom. Wisdom is big-knowledge about “something”.. but what is intelligence?

What is real intelligence? Smart intelligence?
Are Nerds and careerists intelligent? Is Anyone intelligent because he/she knows much?
No… BECAUSE… What’s the use of knowledge if it doesn’t help you to survive?
u know what i mean? So i think people who know how to split atoms aren’t intelligent… they’re smart and they have knowledge.

but what is intelligence? intelligent people are those who take the most important snippets of the most important knowledges and collect them into a large scale of shallow knowledge.
This shallow knowledge contains all stuff that has importance or use in the life of the specific person.

What i want to say is, that we should always be open to get into different kind of knowledge topics. Cuz the more we know, the better we can decide which parts of the knowledge we collect is important and which not…

Gosh i feel like the virtual version of a crazy knigge (if you know who knigge was)… i feel as if i wanted to tell all the people about my weird convenient morals..

i hope the next entry won’t include that kind of poffie-moral lessions because it bores myself.

And Please… don’t ask me now, why i thought this post was so important i don’t remember it as well…

thanks to the “PA” who inspired me to that post.

have a nice day… greeez pfoffie

The stay even if everything’s gone…

Have you ever thought about the life and the importance of the things within?
When i say things, what do i mean by that?

i mean every aspect. Things you buy, people you meet, places you own, beauty you see and the feelings you connect with that…
I’m sure you think about it right now, don’t you? (if you don’t.. DO IT now hehe)…

Have you ever thought about the life and the importance of the things within?
What is important for you? and what stays your whole lifetime? is there anything that lasts infinite? other then yourself?

What about the things you buy? do they last forever? do they last at least until you die?
No. Most things get broken.. No physical thing lasts forever.. only if you keep it in a veeeeery good safe.. but does a physical object make any sense in a closed and hidden safe?
Things in Safes are so Important for people, that the only way to keep it, is to hide and forget it.

What about the people you meet? do they last forever? do they stay until we die?
No. Most relations (even if they are just in friendship) seem to split up time by time and why? because everyone’s moving.. moving ahead.. against everyones very own goal. and because everyone has his/her own goal, there are seldom two ways who are heading the same goal, and if they do, they usually meet right before the goal.

What about the places you own? your flat? your house? will it last forever?
No. Most people somewhen usually start to think their home’s boring. why? because it becomes boring.. because everything gets boring by time.

Same job, same friends, same love, same things, same places. The sophisticated human is always searching for the difference of his/her current stay. And that’s the ultimate answer to all those questions about the things, the people and the places. we just don’t want to be fixed to a permanent stay. We convince ourselves that this is what we want and need, but it’s not.
And so everyone gets sad if something breaks, some friend splits up, some love goes or the home changes. but what if we start to convince ourselves about the fact, that the things need to go?

What about the beauty and the feelings? do they last forever? do they stay until you die?
It depends. Beauty is always just a glimpse. a nice cloud, a great sunset (or sunrise), a beautiful person. But beauty always is a subjective sense. And your taste for beauty could change within time, but you always keep memory of things you once liked. don’t you?
At least what is beauty? beauty is the connection of a picture with one of the good feelings you’ve collected in your life.

So, the memory and the feelings about the beautyful things in your life might stay…
… but isn’t memory just the thing that makes you YOU?

what’s that all about? it’s all about the one thing that stays forever, is always on your side and never leaves you, cuz it has the same goal as you. and you know it your whole life but you never think it is important.
start to think of its importance.
because it is important.

What’s the permanent stay, that’s always there when even everything’s gone?

The stay even if everything’s gone is you.
You stay, even if everything’s gone.

Have you ever thought about your life and the things within?
Maybe you think different now.

And maybe i’m in a totally distorted way of view? but for now, it’s truth for me. and it makes me happy, that the person i know best and i like most will die the same day i do.
Isn’t it good to be your own best friend? it’s egoistic and schizophrenic, but if you still can be nice and not arrogant within that egoistic way of life, you’ll become a goodmood happy person ..
at least i hope so

and now most importantly… No rule without exception. So if you don’t agree with me, that’s okey.. you might tell me through a comment?

Thanks to the silent Zeffie who inspired me to this.

yours – kinda schizophrenicly – pfoffie

… and the zombie’s born…

zombielike:

OOOOOHHHHHHHH…

I knew that night wouldn’t pass away without creating any ^adobe after effects…
It’s 5PM Now .. and i’ve become a zombie! yeah, you’ve read right, a zombie.. a real zombie!! just without dieing before (that’s why i’im sttiiiiilll able to writtteee almost properly)..
If “they” needed zombie-statists for Resident Evil extinction or some other movie, i’d be the best candidate..
i’m too tired to move fast, can’t really speak (only if you count “oohh” and “aaahh” as words) and they wouldn’t even need make-up.. i’m the perfect zombie right now.. and i really believe, that not being able to use the brain, could give some beings (including me) a better live sometimes…

… i guess that night i should go to bed earlier… and i guess i shouldn’t wake up at 3AM again :S if i’m zombie-enough … i won’t wake up at 3AM for sure…

but what is more important now…
… is that i wonder…

where does that hunger come from???
that hunger?
that hunger for human brains?!

… let’s see if my workmate can help…

hunger… brain… hunger..
braaain..

have a nice nite… and beware of.. ME :S

- Pfoffie

… survival horror …

Yeees, i survived that night.. except the fact that i couldn’t sleep between 1:30 am and 3:30 am.. why couldn’t i sleep?
u kno, i again woke up because of some noisy stuff in my flat.. my flat seems to be very noisy! and because that noise-thingy reminded me to that horrific night before, i was scared.. so i set the lights on and lay on my bed.. And because i was very sleepy, i began to have a half-awake-dream..
The dream was about that new xbox360 game i got (it’s called dead rising and it’s about deads who rise again .. as zombies).. i dreamt i was in that game and i had to solve some stupid missions and i couldn’t solve them because i didn’t know some details.. but then, someone told me the details (sadly, i forgot that details) .. and that someone seemed to underneath my bed – that’s the problem of half-awake-dreams.. the things of the dreams seem to get into the “reality”..
that voice woke me up again and i was too scared to look under my bed (u know i still was very sleepy) … so i was there on my bed, semi-wake, scared and then i fell asleep…

…and i woke up at “7:30am” – i watched my watch and it said: “7:30am” and i got in a hurry, because i wanted to begin to work at 8am.. so i put on all my clothes and ran into the bus and i arrived it quite well… the bus drove me to my work place and when i arrived there i looked on my watch again and it said: 7:08am …
So.. there’s just two possibilities…
1. i got a very special, very cool Power called “timetravel”
2. i was just too tired to seperate the 6 from the 7

i guess it’s number one … wooosh …

have a nice whatever – greez pfoff

Nocturnal Visit or How did that Funkyng door open?

Let’s begin by saying: YES i’m a weirdo and YES i usually think the most surreal answers are the true ones…

What do i want to tell you? i want to tell you about last night…
It was a very regular night until.. i woke up at 3AM.. i never wake up at 3AM.. i might wake up at 3:30 or 2:55… but NEVER at 3AM (maybe it was 3:05, dunno)

so you may believe that i was kinda bemazed (btw. i love that kind of words) … so i was wondering why the hell i woke up… and i looked around and i realised: THE DOOR OF MY SLEEPING ROOM HAD OPENED!!!!
Well, that’s not as scary as you might think, cuz that door doesn’t close properly.. so every little windblow can open it..

I didn’t really think about it and walked back to bed again, i had a look out the window and i saw that everyone was sleeping in the other buildings.. i thought, that they all for sure have proper doors…

Now you wonder what’s the Entry-Title is about?
i’ll tell you.. cuz the creepy thing comes in the next morning. i woke up at 5:30AM (cuz my thousand alarm bells belled) and i took a shower and i handled to take my cloths on and i moved to the main room of my flat.. and as i looked to the balcony i saw… THAT DOOR WAS OPEN… i knew for sure that i closed that door the night before. But the peak has not arrived yet.. it arrives now:

the Peak: i have kind of an attic on my two balconies.. and i always keep that doors locked.. but now, the door on the balcony of my main room was half-opened.. i was like: phew who did this???
You know? first thing i thought was that a creepy alien came and wanted to take garbage out of my attic-thingy.. but i put that idea in the garbage..
second idea has been, that a creepy ghost wanted to steal my alcohol…
third idea has been, that a creepy human just wanted to steal “anything” and only could open the attic-thingy (which wouldn’t make much sense, cuz the balcony-door was opened)

Maybe there’s some cute guy who wants to watch me sleeping?
(i shouldn’t write that kind of stuff at Midnight before i go to bed.. i’m scared now)

but there’s a second peak… i went back to my bedroom, and i got a really bad mood, because i saw that on this balcony, the attic-door had been opened too… you know, that were two creepy similar peaks (twin peaks) in about 10 minutes. i closed all the doors and left my flat in a sudden…

Finalizing i convince myself that it was just the wind…

sleep well everybody (this belongs especially to myself) – and i’m open for every kind of explanation

greez Pfoff

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